A never ending story..

Nothing has actually change.. and i don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. 

Still feeling isolated almost like I don't exist... 

No friend... no one... 

Just me.

Sounds egocentric doesn't it? 

But I am alone.. more than I can handle. 

I have been thinking that I don't want to go back to feeling depressed and miserable all the time... I just don't want to go down that path again... ever again... 

BUT... in the effort to avoid it... I feel that it loops and loops... all going back to that previous situation.. 

Like a never ending story that continues... like a replay list... that it never ends and just loops back to that... 

Up... down... up... down.. 

Sick and tired of that.