A year

Been here for a year now...

A year that seems endless... a year with no progress... a year where I have done nothing... just became more and more depressed about how... I have probably destroyed my life..

An by destroy I don't mean drugs. I wish that was it... because drugs it's a reversible situation and if not... well at least you die happy... even if that is just a cheap thrill.

I mean leaving.. going... disappearing and being utterly and unchangeably alone.